|Posted on October 19, 2017 at 3:00 PM|
"Yeah, you're attractive,
but are you good for my mental health?"
You don’t realize how heavy toxicity is on your soul until you’re far and free from it. By free I mean that you’ve spent some time alone to find yourself again. The other day, I tried #Reiki. I went to @santamonicahealing and decided to give it a shot. I’ve only heard good things about it and being the open-minded person I am, I always believe in giving things a chance. I was instantly welcomed and felt a great sense of energy being there. I was simply reminded with a hug, session, and some time listening to what my soul needed that I’ve come a long way. Yes, a long way. I used to take so much stupid shit in relationships because I thought that’s what you’re supposed to do. You’re supposed to be there for people through the highs and lows. You’re supposed to be their shoulder when times are rough. Well, guess what? Who’s say you’re supposed to do shit? Especially when it’s not being reciprocated. That’s the thing about a push-pull relationship. Only one person is giving and the other is pushing you away. You know what that does to a person’s mental health? It fucks them up. It makes them think that something is wrong with them for wanting to help, care, and give. Not everyone is ready for the love you give, but you know who’s always waiting for a little more? You. Your mind, your body, your soul. It may fight you, but with a little loving, patience, and giving...your soul will thank you for loving it like you’ve been trying to love everyone around you. My dear, so many people try to escape seasons of loneliness and as fall and winter roll around, please don’t feel “lonely.” If you are feeling sad or alone, feel it. Be in it. Until you feel like a masterpiece alone, you’ll never connect with people for the right reasons. Be the person you’ve been to others and watch how quickly you’ll grow. You come first.