|Posted on January 17, 2019 at 2:20 AM|
Many moons ago, it was difficult for me to travel. My body would respond with anxiety, stress, and fear. This resulted in never feeling good about going or being there. What should have always felt like a “vacation,” simply was work. It wasn’t until I realized it was never the trips that caused this feeling, rather the people I was going on them with to cause me to feel this way. I never felt for the lack of a better word, safe. It’s easy to have ptsd after bad experiences, like the fear of dating or even falling in love again after having your heart broken. You build walls so high to protect yourself that you don’t know how they’ll ever be broken down. It’s not overnight, but in the midst of all the bricks you build you’ll realize that you’ve got nothing to lose and that simple realization is what frees you from the fear. The beauty of life is that sometimes it brings you full CIRCLE to a place you have been before just to show you how much you have grown. No matter how many "how we met" stories I hear, or how many love stories get written, ours will always be one of my favorites... simply for the reason that my heart was hidden behind a wall only a real man could climb. Find someone who looks at you like you are magic & knows you’re worth the wait.