|Posted on August 23, 2018 at 3:55 PM|
This picture popped up on my “memories” and it made me laugh. This photo is from a few years ago. I was at Cowboy Country, a local line-dancing club. I’ve never been big on going out and it’s primarily because I prefer to spend time with loved ones in places I can enjoy solely their company. It’s not always easy to do this when in loud and crowded places. Anyways...the reason why I wanted to share this photo with you is because I wanted to share the difference between me then and now. As I mention often, if you’re not changing, you’re not growing. This was me, single, after many years. I had finally reached this super awkward stage in my life where I thought I wanted to date, but I was also extremely cynical to love, guys, and dating. I stopped trying, caring, and wanting to find love. I thought once you have it and lose it, it’s never the same. The reality is, it’s not. When you’ve had your heart broken once, you don’t look at love or people the same. You have a guard up, a barrier. Like me in this picture, standing behind a wall rather than out...on the dance floor where it’s so much easier to meet a guy. That’s the thing about saying we’re ready for love. Just because you’re “out” there, it doesn’t always mean you are open and willing to give it a shot. This false belief in our minds that we are ready or when people want to convince you that you’re ready is the beginning of all things painful. You need to heal, my dear. No one knows how long that takes and sometimes you may think you’re healed and you’re not. But I promise, promise, promise...when you know you’ve healed, you’re no longer the one looking for love. Instead, it finds you and sometimes in the same place you were looking.