|Posted on October 30, 2014 at 5:15 PM||comments (0)|
|Posted on October 8, 2014 at 1:40 PM||comments (0)|
Not exactly there, but... Immediately after my breakup, I wondered how I would ever, if I could ever feel as deeply as I did for someone again. My ex was not only my first boyfriend, but he was my first kiss, love, and best friend.
Like many people after a breakup, I felt like I lost- a lot. It took some time for me to find the good in goodbye. I found it sometime ago, but I can’t really recall a moment in time or feeling that made me realize it.
My best friend Triana would always tell me, “I promise you, Shima. There will come this day when it feels good not having to tell someone where you’re at and to think at that very moment, he has no clue where you are.”
Well, that happened eventually- with time. But, the best feeling has recently been happening. I’ve found myself feeling giddy like a little school girl with a mad crush.
I have felt it for random guys that I’ve come across, like today. I found out he had a wife and child, so I just carried on, but to know I can feel that way- giddy and blushing- well, that’s just everything to me.
Take it one day at a time, love, and you’ll see it too.
|Posted on October 6, 2014 at 8:15 PM||comments (0)|
I hate scary movies. I never watch them, but this weekend, I did. I watched it with my best friends in the backyard, so it made the experience a little better. What I noticed from the movie was that almost all the characters felt something- whether in their mind or not, something made them uncomfortable. It got me thinking- we all have that inner voice. I wrote about that in my book, This is what it feels like- intuition. It helps you realize when something isn't right. But I also realized that we can build the worst horror stories in our minds too. We can make believe things we have yet to experience. In the movie, Conjuring, an evil presence is trying to make a character bad- to kill her own offspring. She is told to ignore the voice- to listen to her own heart. To see the good. It's so challenging, but she overcomes the negativity.
I learned that it's ok to start ignoring people who threaten your joy. Literally, ignore them. Say nothing. Don't invite any parts of them into your space. After all, you have to be your own hero, darling.
|Posted on September 5, 2014 at 12:55 PM||comments (0)|
One of the only things promised in life is also the saddest- uncertainty. You never know who'll come and who will leave your life. What relationships will last and which ones won't. I've seen people seem so in love and then part. It's devastating, but it's life. Life is constantly changing and we are always evolving.
It's happened to me. Growth.
You grow apart from things, people, hobbies, and places no longer suited for you. Sometimes the things that bring you together tear you the very things that will tear you apart. So, my only suggestion: know your heart. Know your love. So, when things cause them to hurt- you don't lose those things. Evolve. Grow.
Just don't lose the best part of you.
|Posted on August 14, 2014 at 2:20 AM||comments (0)|
I admire this quote so much. It makes everything so clear. People who come off strongest are sometimes the saddest.
The ones who are considered "the life of the party," sometimes just need a break but there's this false idea in their heads that they have to always be strong.
I know this because it happened to me after my breakup. I put immense pressure on myself that I couldn't be sad or vulnerable, because I'm not "that girl." How I lost those pressures was by realizing I don't have to hold a title or be anything I don't want to and once I did, my writing changed.
It became more honest and relatable to you and I've realized through it that everyone wants to get better fast- but sometimes the process of healing is where you'll learn the most about your heart and who you are.
It's ok to be sad, feel lonely, and vulnerable- don't deny feelings because you don't want to seem weak. The beauty in a person is someone who feels, whether it's happy or sad. I'd rather you take the time to heal than to never feel again and guard your heart.
"It is both a blessing and a curse to feel everything so deeply."
Keep feeling, love. The good, the bad, the ugly- just keep on keeping on.
You're a warrior
|Posted on August 12, 2014 at 1:00 PM||comments (0)|
I've always been a firm believer in being kind to everyone- no matter how rude they are, how senseless they seem, and how careless they feel to be. I've always thought of a bigger picture that somehow, someway- something wasn't all there and maybe they're struggling with a battle that no one knows about.
There's a fine line between justifying someone's actions towards you and I'm still trying to make sense of this daily. Trying to figure out if those who are hurting mean to hurt us or are they lost in themselves.
Whatever the reason being, life is short. This is the only fact I know to be true. So, no matter how much people hurt you or others- pray for them.
Pray for peace. Pray they don't hurt. There's a fine line between justifying and forgiving; I get it. So take the higher road always and sympathize for others.
You never know what battles they're facing- even if they're always smiling and joking.
|Posted on August 12, 2014 at 1:00 PM||comments (0)|
THIS is what I mean when I say it's a fine line between justifying and excusing someone's behavior. It's a very fine line, but never hesitate to sympathize and empathize for others.
Life is short. You're not alone- feel free to email me any time, any day.
|Posted on August 12, 2014 at 12:55 PM||comments (0)|
Two days ago, I was home feeling really sad and alone. Whenever I'm sick with a cold, I'm vulnerable and my emotions tend to feel greater than me. Sometimes we don't talk about how we feel because we don't know how or don't know if anyone will listen. Other times, we fear being judged or bothering others.
I learned a long time ago that you can't expect nor assume someone will know what you feel or will reach out. I learned this when my ex was deployed and I was sad that people were not checking on how I felt. He quickly made me realize that not everyone will think the way I do nor know something is wrong unless I say.
No one can help unless you ask and sometimes asking for help is the hardest part.
You're never alone. Grateful for my girlfriends.